The Last Full Moon of 2020

I can still see Jupiter and Saturn on the Southwest horizon when dusk settles in. Our last full moon is tonight. Such an awful year. Said goodbye at arms length to someone who hated me. 

I have no energy to give others who feel entitled to anything. I am really going to streamline some of my life. My Dad told me in a dream to start at the top and work your way down, so I cleaned my ceiling. I need to find homes/store/donate a lot of items. 

I'm tried of crying. I am tired of what other people think. In the end its only you and Father Mother God energy. You can live in a house full of people and be totally alone. 

I realized when someone or something is too good to be true, it really is. People will play a game as long as it serves their purpose then move on like you never happened. 

I realized that my Daughter is strong, and takes her time to make up her mind about something but she comes to a great conclusion, and for that I am grateful. 

I realized that nothing can beat the gift of health, and I strive to regain mine. 

I realize people pretend to have a perfect life, family and existence and are lying their asses off. Because of what other people think. What a waste of energy. 

My fall/winter garden is growing. I will plant early this year. My bulbs need to go in the ground, hopefully this week. My fruit tree's made it. 

Well off to make small preparations for tonight. 

Let go and let God. 

Amen amen amen and so it is. 

Small Progress

I have built a closet/pantry room. Slowly sorting and filling the shelves. Its so much easier to walk in and visually see what is available whether its a dress and shoes or canned and dry goods, art supplies, each thing has an area. I only want to sort it once. Things I use the most in front. Items like pictures and scrap booking that won't get done for awhile in the back. Maybe someday my daughter will appreciate the effort to save those things. Its her little story, her history and adventures. 

Okra is ready, I picked the tomatoes, some more are forming. I should have some green ones before cold weather. I canned pickles like a mad woman all one weekend. I made hot peppers, hot and sweet, the jars are lined up in the pantry area. Its so hot still, and I need to plan and prepare my fall garden. There are 38 veggies you can grow here in the fall and winter without a lot of trouble. 

I need to pressure wash my little house. Apparently no one else is going to step up. If I can do a side a day it should be done in a week. Then finish painting the pergola. My climbing roses made it and so did my gardenia trees. Going to move the bulbs and put something else there.