The Last Full Moon of 2020

I can still see Jupiter and Saturn on the Southwest horizon when dusk settles in. Our last full moon is tonight. Such an awful year. Said goodbye at arms length to someone who hated me. 

I have no energy to give others who feel entitled to anything. I am really going to streamline some of my life. My Dad told me in a dream to start at the top and work your way down, so I cleaned my ceiling. I need to find homes/store/donate a lot of items. 

I'm tried of crying. I am tired of what other people think. In the end its only you and Father Mother God energy. You can live in a house full of people and be totally alone. 

I realized when someone or something is too good to be true, it really is. People will play a game as long as it serves their purpose then move on like you never happened. 

I realized that my Daughter is strong, and takes her time to make up her mind about something but she comes to a great conclusion, and for that I am grateful. 

I realized that nothing can beat the gift of health, and I strive to regain mine. 

I realize people pretend to have a perfect life, family and existence and are lying their asses off. Because of what other people think. What a waste of energy. 

My fall/winter garden is growing. I will plant early this year. My bulbs need to go in the ground, hopefully this week. My fruit tree's made it. 

Well off to make small preparations for tonight. 

Let go and let God. 

Amen amen amen and so it is. 

Small Progress

I have built a closet/pantry room. Slowly sorting and filling the shelves. Its so much easier to walk in and visually see what is available whether its a dress and shoes or canned and dry goods, art supplies, each thing has an area. I only want to sort it once. Things I use the most in front. Items like pictures and scrap booking that won't get done for awhile in the back. Maybe someday my daughter will appreciate the effort to save those things. Its her little story, her history and adventures. 

Okra is ready, I picked the tomatoes, some more are forming. I should have some green ones before cold weather. I canned pickles like a mad woman all one weekend. I made hot peppers, hot and sweet, the jars are lined up in the pantry area. Its so hot still, and I need to plan and prepare my fall garden. There are 38 veggies you can grow here in the fall and winter without a lot of trouble. 

I need to pressure wash my little house. Apparently no one else is going to step up. If I can do a side a day it should be done in a week. Then finish painting the pergola. My climbing roses made it and so did my gardenia trees. Going to move the bulbs and put something else there.  

 

888 Lions Gate 

2020 has turned out to be a real shit storm. And that is the kindest thing I have to say about it. Forced to stay in, no going anywhere, trapped with no end in site. The rush for supplies, greedy people hoarding toilet paper, that I hope they are now serving for dinner. Forced to enrich Amazon and other rich assholes who charged a premium for supplies. A simple trip for paper towels took all day, came home empty handed. Now the shelves are stabilized with some products, but things people use for canning took 3 store trips, no food dehydrators or small appliances on the shelves. Unless you want a coffee maker you are out of luck. Cooking every single bite we eat. The rare pizza delivery because you are just so sick of preparing food. I am pretty sure my daughter and I both had the virus. In late February she got sick and of course gave it to me. I was in bed for two weeks. I got behind in work and didn't care. I am still weak, heart palpation's,  dizzy, fainted out right and hit the deck outside. 

I took some solace in my garden, very slow going but built a stand up pallet garden with an arch, landscaped, it, the beginnings of a small orchard is taking shape. I plan to install a pool next year. I so miss swimming. I did some of the things I promised myself last year. I have a long way to go. 

We just had a hurricane and lost 5 days, no power and the weakness from heat afterwards takes a toll. I have my game plan, generator and a/c alternative so it won't happen again. Making a storage room/closet out of a spare room. 

I taught myself how to can. Daddy would be proud. He loved to can his veggies that he grew himself. So far I am the salsa queen and Italian pasta sauce. I am going to tackle chow chow next, two ways, one with corn and one with cabbage. I plan on cooking and being outside as much as possible. If they don't close our beach again, I hope to find myself there walking again a few days a week. That hurt me more than anything. I thought well if everything is closed I can still fish and walk. Oh hell no, the government decided that was risky, yet you could go in Lowe's, Wal Mart or grocery stores as often as you like. I am a lot safer in fresh salt air away from people than in a nasty store. 

I had one big life decision made for me, it was taken out of my hands due to illness and for this I thank the Universe, for I would have continued till I was no more. A human can be a vampire, and sometimes it takes you all your life to realize it. Baby steps, my PTSD is a bit better. 

I made a new friend he has 4 legs and is now my little dog. His owner passed suddenly and no one in the family wanted him. I'm glad because I sure love him. 

So as we enter the Lions Gate, I hope to continue to improve. 

Strength return, peace, love and prosperity.  

Ask and you shall receive, and so it is.

Axel's face says it all. Bite me.