888 Lions Gate 

2020 has turned out to be a real shit storm. And that is the kindest thing I have to say about it. Forced to stay in, no going anywhere, trapped with no end in site. The rush for supplies, greedy people hoarding toilet paper, that I hope they are now serving for dinner. Forced to enrich Amazon and other rich assholes who charged a premium for supplies. A simple trip for paper towels took all day, came home empty handed. Now the shelves are stabilized with some products, but things people use for canning took 3 store trips, no food dehydrators or small appliances on the shelves. Unless you want a coffee maker you are out of luck. Cooking every single bite we eat. The rare pizza delivery because you are just so sick of preparing food. I am pretty sure my daughter and I both had the virus. In late February she got sick and of course gave it to me. I was in bed for two weeks. I got behind in work and didn't care. I am still weak, heart palpation's,  dizzy, fainted out right and hit the deck outside. 

I took some solace in my garden, very slow going but built a stand up pallet garden with an arch, landscaped, it, the beginnings of a small orchard is taking shape. I plan to install a pool next year. I so miss swimming. I did some of the things I promised myself last year. I have a long way to go. 

We just had a hurricane and lost 5 days, no power and the weakness from heat afterwards takes a toll. I have my game plan, generator and a/c alternative so it won't happen again. Making a storage room/closet out of a spare room. 

I taught myself how to can. Daddy would be proud. He loved to can his veggies that he grew himself. So far I am the salsa queen and Italian pasta sauce. I am going to tackle chow chow next, two ways, one with corn and one with cabbage. I plan on cooking and being outside as much as possible. If they don't close our beach again, I hope to find myself there walking again a few days a week. That hurt me more than anything. I thought well if everything is closed I can still fish and walk. Oh hell no, the government decided that was risky, yet you could go in Lowe's, Wal Mart or grocery stores as often as you like. I am a lot safer in fresh salt air away from people than in a nasty store. 

I had one big life decision made for me, it was taken out of my hands due to illness and for this I thank the Universe, for I would have continued till I was no more. A human can be a vampire, and sometimes it takes you all your life to realize it. Baby steps, my PTSD is a bit better. 

I made a new friend he has 4 legs and is now my little dog. His owner passed suddenly and no one in the family wanted him. I'm glad because I sure love him. 

So as we enter the Lions Gate, I hope to continue to improve. 

Strength return, peace, love and prosperity.  

Ask and you shall receive, and so it is.

Axel's face says it all. Bite me.  

End of an Era

Goodbye to 2019

Once again I have failed to write. A hurricane, illness of family members, search for a peaceful residence after the storm all took extreme measures and energy. 

There is a long mental list of things I want to say goodbye to. Too personal to post for public knowledge, but its time I make peace with what needs to change. 

I hope to find myself again, my laughter, my sense of humor that has been ripped out of my heart. To ignore and make void all negative energy pressed on me out of pure anger and jealousy. Find my strength, find my path. 

I choose joy, happiness, beautiful energy, health and strength, regain resources, and most of all, peace at the end of each day knowing I did my best with no regret. 

Bright blessings for the coming of 2020.

So mote it be. 

And so it is. 

January 11, 2019

I visited my site today and see that I failed to write for a year. Chasing the carrot and taking care of others has taken its toll. 

I have changed some habits for the better. I have learned how dark the hearts are of so many, so I give them wide berth. 

My health is slowly improving, now to get my strength back in all areas. 

Bright blessings for a joy filled 2019. 

Amen, Amen, Amen. 

Citrine Aventurine & Quartz

with green candles

financial blessing  

Sturgeon Moon/The Finger of God

We should be working on our shift tonight. Charge your crystals & start working more on your planned path. Chart the course for yourself. No one can do it for you. Your push must come from within. Let no one, man, woman or government be your guide.

Think of where you are right now. Where you are going. Who will you take along for the ride. 

Choose carefully 

At least now I have a name for my love of storm.